You are everything !!!

As a kid, I was dreamed about falling in love with a prince, who would come in a silver shining armour, and gallop away with him on his horse into a hazy, peach orange sunset. I waited for so long for that dream to come true and in the end it did . And that moment felt like a fairytale !!

It felt like a million angels had decided that I was good this year and deserved someone amazing - YOU !! You make me feel like the happiest girl alive every second of every day.You make me feel like there is no other, like you are the only one I will ever love. And I know deep down in my heart: you are the only one I will love. And the only one I ever plan on Loving.

I can have a really bad day one day, and you can just text me and I forget what I did that day and I will be so happy, you make my day a hundred times better and no matter what you say it just makes me feel so good about myself. And every time we talk it feels like my stomach is doing non stop back flips and my heart beats like crazy just by hearing your amazing voice ....  

You always compliment me in every way possible, and I write them down and read them and smile and think ' what good have I ever done in my life to deserve someone like you .. someone who is so amazing !!! ' . Before I go to sleep you always say "Goodnight, Sweet dreams , sleep tight " It makes me feel so good... you make me have premature ventricular contractions !!! you make me skip a heart beat ...

Love had become just another word for me until you gave it a definition, and you have...you are my love till the end... nothing makes me feel different unless it's more love, and that is every day and every hour and every second... you are my love , my only love... for today , tomorrow and forever ..

You are the only one I can talk non-stop to .. I can talk my heart and then still manage to talk something more to you.. you know me inside out .. even better than i know myself .. you know when i am angry .... you know when i am sad .. and you try so much to make me feel happy again .. !!!! And you also tolerate all my tantrums !! :P and wait for me ... long endless waits ... I really don't know how you do it ... With us it is  fantastic,passionate,scary as hell, scary because i feel so many emotions at one time !!! Literally, one extreme to another...  and also because it was something that I never felt in my life before ...  something so extreme !!!!

But I am happy that I had those feelings, I feel light on my feet, my head in the clouds, I only think of you. Your face, your laugh, ,your soft words, your kisses....I knew I was in love. 

 I love you like stop motion; deliberately and in small increments. Every little bit of you I allow myself comes with a price. I’ve learned I must pace myself with you. I’m easily addicted and you are a poison. Murder has never been this delicious…or voluntary.

 you’re the best thing that has ever happened to me. I am perfectly content to be with you for the rest of my life. I am perfectly content to give you all of me. I love you so much. I need you so much. You are everything to me.

I spend everyday counting the days until we meet... talking to you always brings a huge smile on my face .. without you i am incomplete ... i wish i was there wth you .. but even though your so far away you feel so close to my heart .. i always look at the sky and smile cause i know the sky is something that we both share .. i wish you were near .. bt dont worry .. we'll get through this .. I dream about you .. about us everyday and every night  .. and i'll always be here counting the days until we meet each other ... <3 A lifetime of you is not enough, but it is more than I deserve ! Forever is a long time but I wouldn’t mind spending it by your side. Tell me that everyday I get to wake up to that smile. I wouldn’t mind it at all.  You will always be my love , my shona , my babu , my shonu , my kiddie , my gubbara .. My everything ..

Babu, this is all for you. There are thousands and thousands of words in this post . and every single one of them belongs to you. I thought that if I could form the perfect post, the perfect paragraph or sentence I would be able to convey to you just how much I love you ! But in the hundreds of thousands of words I still haven’t done that. I still don’t know how to craft the perfect sentence structure and choose the perfect diction and word order to adequately express how much you mean to me, how much I need you, how much I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I’ve come to the conclusion that maybe I’ve been over-thinking it. Maybe the perfect sentence has already been formed

It’s been getting harder and harder for me to write here. That’s because what we share together is too precious and perfect for me to capture accurately. My feelings are so hard to put into words. Even now, I’m racking my brain, trying to come up with a strong enough diction to paint a picture of what I feel for you. But I’ll try anyway…
I’m lying here on my bed and my brain is doing that thing again - that thing where it takes a memory of you and amplifies, magnifies, copies, and basically overloads my mind with nothing but you. Now my chest hurts and I have this overwhelming urge to cry because it’s times like these when I want you next to me so badly it physically hurts. I literally ache for you. And I wonder if you ever feel this way too. I wonder if you hurt like I do… I wonder if without me you feel like you can’t breathe. I wonder if without me you can’t sleep. I wonder if you have to fight to get me off your mind. Because I do.
Maybe the only way to sum it all up is in three words; eight letters. 
I love you.

                                                                                                Yours forever,
                                                                                                 Me.